TO LOVE IS TO SUFFER

I've never fully comprehended how the idea of love as misery came to be. However, now that I'm peering at the obscurity that stands between you and I... To be close to you would mean that I would have to destroy all I had ever known and become the brutality I had always resisted.

I'm so miserable because of my aching desire to be one with you. And what if I were to near you? Would you survive my brutality?

Every time you look away from me, my entire being aches, and every time you look at me, my soul burns because all I see in your eyes is the sun. Unfortunately, only the sun makes you glow. And I am no star, darling. Merely the notion of that makes my insides bleed.

Despite everything, my soul does not yearn to be the star, for I am the one who notices the inky darkness in you. The inky darkness that you possess is what made me love you. I adore and crave the entirety of you.